It's 2013 , a new year, a new beginning. No wonder many people say once a person hit 21 years of age, time really flies after that. It seems to me that another year have passed so quickly that 2012 has become 2012+1 !
Doubt there's any reader now since I have not been active blogging for the past year. Haha. Got too lazy and the only time I blogged last semester was due to commitment for ES2007S module! Somehow I have the itch to express my random thoughts today.
Have you wondered whether you are of a better person or a happier person each day? Somehow I feel that as I grow older, I do not feel that I am a happy person. My grandparents' passings have impacted me so much. It was the first time I really experienced death of my closed ones, it was a double blow I would say.
My deepest regret last year was not being able to spend time with my granddad before he passed away. It was a sudden one because I didn't expect him to leave us, leave me so soon. I fondly remembered how he used to buy paper lanterns for me and sister during Mid-Autumn Festival when we were young. And how I always know that he will buy roasted duck whenever he comes to visit our family. And how lucky and smiley he was when he played blackjack with the relatives because he will always win a lot and will increase his bet each round. And how he will call me "Xiao Mei" though I wasn't the youngest in the family. For my grandma, she has suffered a lot all these years, after suffering from stroke and all. Though I was not considered as one of her favourite grandchildren when I was young, I remember how we will always find almond jelly in the refrigerator and it was the grandchildrens' favourite dessert after meal. And how she came over to visit me when I was admitted to hospital and she bought stuffed toy bear for me. Though she could not communicate to us for years, it tugged my heartstrings when she pulled and adjusted herself ,leaning on me for support on our way back from grandpa's funeral.
In the recent days, I feel that my parents are really getting
older, with signs of more obvious wrinkles painted on their faces, how
vulnerable they are now to age-degenerative diseases. My dad's eczema
and doctor recently diagnosed that mum is having retinal tear as she
kept seeing floaters on her right eye.
So for 2013, I hope my loved ones will remain healthy. And me, being a worry-wart, to be less negative and be braver in facing any new challenges ahead.
