Hold on - David Choi

You fought your way up to the wall
But you haven't gone past at all
While gazing with tear filled eyes
You just can't help but ask why?


Trying hard is what it takes
Then why does it feel like a mistake
The world has taken its side
You just want to run away and hide


It's tough
There's no one to turn to
I hear, screaming inside you,
Feels like hell's all you've been through
Hell's all you've been through


Hold on
Don't stop your breathing
I see your dreams and
I feel them too


Hold on
Don't lose your faith
I know you can't break
I'm hoping and praying for you
For you
For you


All your peace seems far away
But you know there comes a day
When everything's so bright
All the darkness you feel subsides


And in the rising of the sun
You can finally say it's done
The world will take your side
And your heart will start to shine

I will be
Holding onto you
There is
Nothing you can't do
I will try to be strong
Try to be strong


So hold on
Don't stop your breathing
I see your dreams
And, I feel them too

Hold on
Don't lose your faith
I know you can't break
I'm hoping and praying for you


I'll never let go of you
I'll never let go of you
I'll never let go of you
Of you


Hold on
Don't stop your breathing
I see your dreams
And, I feel them too


Hold on
Don't lose your faith
I know you can't break
I'm hoping and waiting for you

it suddenly feels so weird to update my soon-to-be dead bloggg ! oh well , it seems like i've got many things to work on on my to-do list . midterms are over for me ! :D something to be glad about after having all the tests cramped in a weeek . But there's still many many steps away for me to attain good grades. SO JIAYOU BAH everyone. so here goes my very very short and boring post.

I'M A :( :( :( :( GIRL WHEN:

i get crappy feelings sometimes because things don't get solved :(
i feel bad as I've not done enough as a friend, daughter, girlfriend , sister
i get mood swings
i 'm unsure of what to expect from the new environment !
i find myself fat and ugly
i have breakouts !
i have nothing to do



I'M A :D :D :D GIRL WHEN:

i get new Korean songs in my phone
i manage to dig out and get to borrow jodi picoult's book in the library
i have wonderful & gay friends who willing to go through extra mile to do things for me
i have a crappy and concerned bf
i get to go out with people i love during outings
i feel healthy when i go for a jog
i have a gay sister when we don't quarrel HAHA
i'm letting things go as ignorance is really a bliss
i have the privilege to study
i get to sleeeeppppp
i get to drink my favourite yoghurt drink
i get to eat foods that i've craved for
i bake things that are nice (which is impossible lol.)
i get to make new friends
i get to camwhore (with people of course. )



OKAY. so i'm not as grumblyyy and unhappppy as i think i am ! :D:D :D :D

EHH ! miss Pan shiying has been behaving like a very very very free person for the past few weeks :D (JOBLESS mah ) she watched Shinee reality show, read storybook . she went to join sheares hall camp with kuku and limmy last week and enjoyed playing the games very much , cause it was very different from those experienced during jc orientation. And she managed to make friends there :D but then , she didn't meet anyone who took exactly the same course as her EH ! BOO. and everybody was like saying for engineering , the males proportion is very much greater than females - like 70-30 ?? AIGOO, cause she 's going to study in a male-dominated environment. fortunately she got her gay REDDDDDYY with her (:

hopefully there will bioengineering camp eh, which she don't think have. She won't be going to other random camps bah cause she thinks it will be sian if she keeps going to camp and play the same games over and over again.

She behaved like a suagu tourist because she went to visit jurong birdpark with botakboy and nightsafari with part of the gang :D And she also behaved like a pig too because she slept around 10 hours each day :/ the shopaholic side of her disappeared as she didn't bought anything when she went shopping with wobble like a tofu , banana and bimmmy !

LASTBUTNOTLEAST , she got her new laptopppy and being an un-ITsevyperson. she's still figuring out their functions :)


the above mentioned is her mundane life updates and she guessed nobody will be stalking her blog anyway :D

joblesss update

i'm jobless starting from tomorrow =x ,which means i will earn lesser because i will just survive on teaching tuition and will be so free because tuition kids are going on the holiday too ! i'll be so bu xi guan . hoho , mogu said i'm going to the mould-at-home club lol. the job of being afterschool care teacher is challenging cause you need to constantly remind them to do their work , reprimanding them when they get too rowdy and rough , being called "selfish" when we didn't let them play catching LOL , and dealing with unreasonable remarks from lao ah pek. now we're praying hard that we still get our pay from him .

Moreover, i've once doubted my childhood ambition of becoming a good teacher because its not as easy as it seemed. sometimes it gets pretty hard controlling a bunch of rowdy boys and they merely turned deaf ears to your instructions . and maybe because of our age, they treat us more like jiejies rather than teachers . haha but childish me still laughed at some of their funny and cute actions and played with them (: at least its not a stagnant job after since i can slacked and dealing with all sort of weird things without stoning somewhere.

Anw, i've choosen to take bioengineering at nus instead . and i'm going to experience 4 days hostel camp on 9-12 june (: and i'm going hongkong at the end of june despite having swine flu there. hopefully it will die down during that period bah.

So during my super free/ san nang period , I'm going to do things to enrich myself before entering into university bah.

to mug for korean since i'm always so slow at learning language
to read up on A level biology since i don't have the prior knowledge
to read storybook & become nerdy
to have catchups with the wonderful people !
to exercise =D (swimming , jogging , gym , anything ! )
to learn some skills? ( Like cooking? LOL )


hhhhmmmmmmmmmmmm. hopefully i won't rot at home. HAHA.


one more weeeeeeeekk (: