COUNTDOWN: 2 DAYS
ii dread to countdown. but ii've decided to do so cause it marks the start of the sickening promos.
goosh. i've not done enough preparations and few weeks back ii held on the mentality that ii might get retained when i'm on the verge of giving everything up. i've not yet put on a brave fight across exam monsters. and i'm giving up. i've absolutely little confidence on every subjects. the concepts are just soo weak; but ii have no idea where to clear my doubts.
but as promos are getting nearer and nearer. i can't imagine what will happen to my life if ii get retained. to continue to struggle or choose another pathway- wasting 1 year of my life. i don't want to get retained. although i've tried to mug hard for them, the things just don't get into my mind. YUCKS. and i've saw quite a number of people breaking down due to stress, i've experienced them too. sometimes life is just so contradicting: one moment you may seem nonchalant about it, consoling those who breakdown-giving them hopes and encouragement ; another moment you become so stressed up because you realised you can't cope with heavy workload and needs friends' encouragement. ya. it works like a cycle, didn't it?
well, shall stop crapping . life is just so contradicting. =(
