2013

It's 2013 , a new year, a new beginning. No wonder many people say once a person hit 21 years of age, time really flies after that. It seems to me that another year have passed so quickly that 2012 has become 2012+1 !

Doubt there's any reader now since I have not been active blogging for the past year. Haha. Got too lazy and the only time I blogged last semester was due to commitment for ES2007S module! Somehow I have the itch to express my random thoughts today.

Have you wondered whether you are of a better person or a happier person each day? Somehow I feel that as I grow older, I do not feel that I am a happy person. My grandparents' passings have impacted me so much. It was the first time I really experienced death of my closed ones, it was a double blow I would say.


My deepest regret last year was not being able to spend time with my granddad before he passed away. It was a sudden one because I didn't expect him to leave us, leave me so soon. I fondly remembered how he used to buy paper lanterns for me and sister during Mid-Autumn Festival when we were young. And how I always know that he will buy roasted duck whenever he comes to visit our family. And how lucky and smiley he was when he played blackjack with the relatives because he will always win a lot and will increase his bet each round. And how he will call me "Xiao Mei" though I wasn't the youngest in the family. For my grandma, she has suffered a lot all these years, after suffering from stroke and all. Though I was not considered as one of her favourite grandchildren when I was young, I remember how we will always find almond jelly in the refrigerator and it was the grandchildrens' favourite dessert after meal. And how she came over to visit me when I was admitted to hospital and she bought stuffed toy bear for me.  Though she could not communicate to us for years, it tugged my heartstrings when she pulled and adjusted herself ,leaning on me for support on our way back from grandpa's funeral.

In the recent days, I feel that my parents are really getting older, with signs of more obvious wrinkles painted on their faces, how vulnerable they are now to age-degenerative diseases. My dad's eczema and doctor recently diagnosed that mum is having retinal tear as she kept seeing floaters on her right eye.


So for 2013, I hope my loved ones will remain healthy. And me, being a worry-wart, to be less negative and be braver in facing any new challenges ahead.

haha :B blogging seems like a foreign thing to me alr, especially confused like an old lady when I see this new blogspot interface. Was horrified when i see all the old posts all gone ! But realised I actually created a new blog (which I dont know how ! ) But wells, at least all the posts remained intact ! yay ! :)
Anyway, just to update my blog during recess week with a small peekture that says it all for my special February.  love these people !

:D It seems like I will update this blog every start of a new semester ! :p 3 months holiday passed really quickly ! probably because I was working and hanging out with friends every now and then. I think the 3months break was a good chilling period though :D my surprise birthday party organised by lovelies <3 , marina barrage with chingching and matong, johor trip , bkk trip with wq, mabs and love as well as never-ending chilling out sessions with yinsy and gays! LOVE YOU PEEEPS ! heeheeee !

Need to start writing using good english alr! I feel so useless at writing essays now. And still, the thought of going back to school made me zzzz. But nonetheless, shall start working hard starting from tomorrow. Even though today is the official start of the school for many people, today is my off day ! MR LEE ZHIKANG <3, WORK HARD TOGETHER !

AHHHHHH.

1st week of schoooooooooool....

I knew I was taking 5 core modules, and still appealing to take the 6th module. But it's barely the end of first week, I find myself unable to absorb what the lecturers have said, and I'm starting to feel overwhelmed by the avalanche of commitments required by every single module. Especially the continuation of my last semester project module ! I'm so scared of having free-rider for the project and we not spending not enough time or too much time on meetings and getting stuck! And I'm going to continue to teach tuition this coming sunday. OHMO, and i just ranted to <3 and I came to the conclusion that I'm feeling extremely grumpy and negative todayy :( SO TATA, I'm going to sleeeeppp now and TMR i will make it to be a happppy day !

grumpy me.

looking backk.

It is the second day of 2011 ! And I'm turning 21st 7months from nowwwwww. Alot of people mentioned to me that once you hit 21st, time will pass super quickly. ahhhh, I'm gonna age gracefully haha!

Looking back at 2010, there were unhappinesss and definitely happiness.

I wish that the problem that I'm still facing now could go away, even though I know its gonnna be difficult. Not that I'm pessimistic about it, it's that I used to habour much hope that things will get better and yet falling into disappointments yet again. I'm just tired, finding ways to ignore,build a wall around me and escape from it.

On a lighter note, I'm blessed to have special people around me. Perking me up when I'm down, allows me to put on a braver and optimistic side of me and still believes that everything is gonna be okayy. Thankyou love and lovelies !

And I came to realise "sufficient is the new more", akin to the phrase "Green/Pink/Red/whatever is the new black". I don't need alot of stuffs , alot of friends, alot of money, alot of stuffs. I just neeed those that are valuable, sufficient and close to my heart will do. okayy, I think I'm "gibberishing" noww.

I hope that 2011 will be a better year for me, for us, for everyone :D