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nobody will be contented of what they have. whenever we get something out of what we didn't expected, we hoped that it will not happen in the first place. ii kept thinking that if only ii could score c6 , ii would be celebrating really very hard right now . but the english grade really got me veryy disappointed and it seemed like i'm falling into an endless pit. what if ii get into mjc and ii also did badly for gp? what if ii have to be retain if ii manage to get into a jc? and also, ii have to go through o level english procedures again. ii really dislike oral examinations. ii'm that kind who is very bad at putting my thoughts in words , expecially under formal situations. and ii have to write narratives again !
i must admit that ii'm that kind of stubborn girl who could not embrace that ugly reality with open arms. ii need plenty of time to get it over. even a small minor thing can get me to be grumbly for few days. managed to cry a little today whenn ii was talking to my parents.
i felt blessed to be surrounded by pals and friends who tried their best to comfort me , their efforts are very much appreciated. thanks alot.sigh.